This last month has been a whirlwind.
Truthfully, the whole engagement has seemed incredibly fast, but this month especially. The fall has been going so quickly, as I have settled in at a new internship that keeps me very busy, changed around my work schedule, and, of course, been tying up all the loose ends of wedding planning. So I apologize for my lack of blogging for anyone who is reading out there. I know there are at least a couple of you.
Throughout the engagement, people have asked me if I've been stressed, and the answer has always been no. Not even a little. I have adored the process of wedding planning and I have had an equal partner throughout the journey to carry half of the weight as well as countless family members pitching in. However, these last few weeks have truly begun to be stressful, because Chuck and I both have so little time in a day between all of our school/work commitments and the pressure is on to get things completed within 16 days or fewer. (Even as I type that number, it doesn't feel real, because I have so many obligations here in Michigan for work and school between now and then.) Yikes!
This week alone has yielded two emotional breakdowns, which is two more than I've had in this 11-month-long wedding planning process so far. Both were handled so gracefully by my husband-to-be, who wisely steps in to help resolve the situation without trying to take over, knowing that forcing me to give up total control will only end in more stress on my part. (I'm generally laidback, but when I'm in the midst of something, I have to finish it the way I intended to and passing the torch is anxiety-inducing. Thanks to my mom for those control freak genes.) As we travel closer and closer to the alter, I am constantly reaffirmed in this decision to marry Chuck.
I have to remind myself that even if the seating charts are all messed up and the music isn't perfect (the sources of this weeks meltdowns), we will be spending a day in communion with the people we love the most. People will be fed, loved on, and appreciated so deeply. And nothing else matters. After all this preparation, in two weeks, 200+ of you crazy people will gather and celebrate this sweet love we have found. Wow!
How blessed we are.
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